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stupid boys

okay, so i met this guy named jay and we had a great time and all was well till he stopped really talking to me. i was trying to figure u out why but we never really talked. till tonight were this below was our conversation. and thanks to bear she helped me figure out what to say. why is it though when i feel something with a guy he just wants to be friends and isn't ready for a relationship. but when i am not ready or like someone else they want to be in a relationship....so below is what happend to me tonight at like 1:30

jay says:
i'm sorry we don't talk anymore it's noones fault but my own
maggie says:
what do u mean
maggie says:
are u going to explain
maggie says:
hello
jay says:
yea sorry
jay says:
tired
jay says:
i dont want to anymore
jay says:
i'm tired of talking about it
maggie says:
ok
maggie says:
are we still friends and going to talk still or are we done talking
jaysays:
no were still friends
maggie says:
ok
maggie says:
i am glad i like talking to u
maggie says:
i was getting worried and trying to figure out if i did something wrong
jay says:
no you did nothing wrong whatsoever
maggie says:
is there anything i can do to help u out
jay says:
i just dont want to rush into anything
maggie says:
what
maggie says:
i don't expect u to rush into anything
jay says:
to be honset i don't want a relationship of any sorts right now anyways
maggie says:
not even as friends
jay says:
no as friends
jay says:
but i mean as more then
maggie says:
i really like u as a friend and don't want to lose that
jay says:
you won't
jay says:
i just am not ready emotionally to have anything more
jay says:
i'm almost always thinking about trying to get to know myself more
maggie says:
thats good...gettingto know yourself more is a good thing
maggie says:
i am always here if u need to talk about anything
jay says:
i know i appreciate it alot
jay says:
i didn't want to spoil anything either and i'm glad i didn't
maggie says:
u didn't
maggie says:
i am not ready for a relationship really right now either i don't think
jay says:
no i meant about that night i could of did somethings to you
maggie says:
ya
maggiesays:
but u didn't
maggie says:
and if u did u woudn't of runt anything
jay says:
i would of sex usually does does it not?
maggie says:
i might of been confused a little but i would of understood still about the friend thing
maggie says:
it can
maggie says:
but when i had sex the first and only time all i thought was ok we are sex friends not ok we are in a relationship
maggie says:
and i really don't think it would of gone all the way to sexs
jay says:
no foreplay maybe
maggie says:
it would of been all foreplay
maggie says:
if we would of done something would u of regreted it
jay says:
no i wuld't of.

and that was pretty much the conversation other then him saying we can hang out still as frineds. ya friends. i don't know i get my hopes up and then get disappointed. its not fair. why is it that all my closest friends have somone. well all the ones back home. when will it be my turn. who knows maybe he is just saying this due to the fact of my weight....more then likely. who knows. all i know is that i want it to be my turn to have a relationship with someone...have someone love me more then my my family and my closest friends back home. grrrr i am so dipressed right now...anywa off to bed so i can study for my two midterms this week, do my two assignments....plus i have to clean my whole house for the party this saturday at 7pm. and then study for my two next week on the 14 and 15. grrrr i hate being so busy.
:(

posted by magmers @ 11:05 p.m.