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it's been awhile

okay so i know that its probably been like over a month since i have updated this thing but school has been hectic, plus work, plus life itself. so i should be writing these journals that are due on monday but instead decided to prcrastinate and actually blog. i think its due to my confussion of something. so here it is...i am still kinda involved with this one boy that whats no dating at all but just action.. and that's great and all because a girls got needs to. but on the other hand there is this new boy that i have gone out with three times and have had a blast with but don't know where it's going. so my confussion is do i keep the one biy till or if the new one becomes more serious. or do i get rid of the old one even though i do not know where the new one is going yet. ohhh the confussion. anyway beside this issue i have to get ready for my party tomorrow which i hope will be a blast and that everyone will get along and that people actually come from work and that its exciting and nothing bad happens. plus figure out when i work next but thats all up to if tina put the schedule up yet. so i know i told a certain someone that i would never blog again but i am and i will when i am confused with different things or just want to keep people up with what i do in my life....well i think thats it for now...gotta go figure out what to eat and get ready for my work shift...my parents where up last weekend and i had a blast and glad they came to vivist and i can't wait till christmas break to see them and my friends again. ohhh another issue do i buy the new guy a present or do i not? or do i wait to see how it goes from here. i think i wil continue with my curant thought of play it one day at a time and see where things go. if it gets more serious and if we discuss christmas gifts then i will know. or if he justs pulls one on me i might get mad but will then get him one. i don't want to spend money on one and then feel aquired about giving him it. ohhh one last statement...it is offical that a girl i thought was a good friend is no longer....she said i didn't fight hard enough for oour friendship but i didn't know friendship was about fighting to keep it. but on this note i don't understand the ignorance from her to the people that are associated with me. she ignores them or deletes them off msn even though they were friends to, but since they are associaed with me she is rude and acts like a bitch. i never thought that she was like this and would act ike this but i guess i was worng cause i thought we would be friends forever and we aren't. i think i am offically getting to understand this and realize that she was never a close friend and that i almost ruined other firendships because of her and i am glad that they didn't let that happen and didn't get to upset that my time went all to this girl and not to them. but i thank you for sticking around and still being my frined here in ottawa. cause without you guys i don't know where i would be. so thank you for not taking my ignorance when i was with her as a insult or as a ditching of our friendhip...cause it is seen now through my eyes that you guys ae the close friends and she was just a thing i needed to go through to figure out what true friendship is....

posted by magmers @ 9:39 a.m.