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pissy mood

so this week was different..back to being alone for a week since Beckie went home for her march break. i hung out with Shannon and her brother and his friend. it was fun but the friend was a little crazy. it was eventful though. to seeing my boyfriend on Friday and hung out with him where he brought up my living issues once Beckie moves out. i told him that i need to find someone for the summer then Shannon was going to live with me come September that is if after i talked to her she still agreed. but i knew that more then likely she wouldn't be. i have been prolonging telling Shannon because i hate confutation. plus with me having stomach issues for a couple of weeks and her brother being up i hadn't had time to talk to her. but i was going to. anyway he then said who will live with u and i said i have no clue. and somehow he brought up him and i said its up to you. and that just got into a weird discussion but made me think and realize its way to soon especially since we only see each other once or twice a week. living everyday together would ruin the relationship. so that was Friday.

Saturday i went for breakfast and then shopping and then it was st.Patty's day my boyfriend came over and we had dinner were he then told me i wasn't allowed wearing a skirt to the bar because it was a stupid idea. i then asked him to choose a top and he said not one because it was too reveling. this made me think maybe he is a little possessive about when he goes out with me what i should wear. i got pissy which is me showing him the real me. which might scare him away and if it does then well it wasn't meant to be. but this morning proved that he still is with me.

Sunday...Shannon calls and tells me that my boyfriend in english when i was buying drinks mentioned what i told him about Shannon and i living together...and then again in french later on...this has now put me in a pissy mood once again since it wasn't his place to mention anything about the living situation to Shannon even if she asked him...he could of said no i don't know.....

so i decide to email him and discuss this with him...email him three times...all about this and letting him know hes not in trouble but now has me in a pissy mood. we will see what comes from this...if i get a response back from the emails...and if he does call me like he said he would

i have realized though in the last week that i think too much about him and I. and that i just go with the flow...i am going to try my best to not think anymore and go with the flow...i like him a lot and hope we are still good...but if not it just wasn't meant to be.

anyway this now means that Shannon and i talked and that shes not living with me anymore her decision not mine...but now i have to decide...i did post on a facebook thing for subletting apartments and also signed up to post on Ottawa universities off campus site..when i get the approval i will put up a posting...but also i have to decide if i really want a complete stranger living with me...it might be weird or it might be cool...i might make a new friend or completely hate them. or do i want to live alone again but in the same building.....i have a lot to think about but sometime to do it...for living in Ottawa the thoughts don't need to be made till end of April...staying in Ottawa i have till the schools let me know...if i am not accepted i have to see were my boyfriend and i stand to see if i stay in Ottawa or not...if we are not together then to Burlington i go and get a full time job. i am looking her though to....cause i am pretty sure i love him and don't want to leave him here alone....

yes i know it says pretty sure i love him...even though i told him once that i did and he said it back...i haven't said it since other then in a email and i find it hard to say it and that's why i don't so who knows maybe i jumped the gun on dropping the l bomb...who knows

Beckie comes back today and i am supper excited cause i get my rings back from the jewelers and i get to see her..its been just over a week and i know i like being alone but i love her and she my sister and she is great listener for me the over analyzer...she will get a mouth load...lol

this is pretty long but happy belated bday Jen hope it was a good one and Amy please call me....i miss you...

posted by magmers @ 12:04 p.m.